Day Dreams

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Yep, same kid. I get both of those faces multiple times a day. It is one of the things that crack me up about a kid. One minute they are screaming like the world is coming to an end and then something happens, someone gives them something and a smile erupts across their face like it was the best day of their lives. Their mood is dependent on what is going on around them.

As we grow up, or pretend to grow up we start to take responsibility for our happiness and emotions. I tell my children all the time that they decide if they are happy or sad but really it's just an excuse to remind myself. Because this grown up stuff is for the birds! It's a lot tougher than it looked when I was a kid.

This week I should have plastered that reminder on my forehead. It was one of those weeks I questioned everything in my life. I felt fat even though I am at my lightest weight in 9 years. I felt ugly. I felt lonely. I questioned every relationship I treasure. I felt insecure. I felt scared. My life has handed me some choices that might call for major changes. I began to feel helpless and started to contemplate changing the direction I have work so hard for the last few years. But then I thought of my dreams and realized that is how they end. Fear, sadness, pain. Nothing is going to rob me of my dreams. No one ever said following their dreams was the easiest thing they have done. If it was easy, everyone would do it. 

I decide if I am happy. I will follow my heart and achieve my dreams!